Someday Someway

If someone should ask
what is a regret?
I would answer
truthfully and say
not mastering
how to stay.

I’ve pretended to sleep
with men who loved me
and some
I have loved back.
I do find myself
in spite of myself
plotting
escape routes
instead of
savoring sweet dreams.

A man
once dubbed me
uncontainable.
I thought it was banter
and laughed.
Instead it became
an anthem
a self-fulfilling prophecy.

It may be a defense
a fear of being left first
or perhaps
I’m a chimera
in disguise.

But please
don’t misunderstand
I have not canceled
chasing my happily ever after.
Instead of passages out
I’ll soon be planning ways to stay.

“If you can’t tell me what you need
All I can do is wonder why
Someday, someway
Maybe I’ll understand you”
–Marshall Crenshaw

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12 Comments
  1. I’m a runner, I can so relate. Beautiful, Dori.
    I love this passage
    “But please
    don’t misunderstand
    I have not canceled
    chasing my happily ever after.
    Instead of passages out
    I’ll soon be planning ways to stay.”

    Someday. Xo

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