Year: 2018
WASTE
My thoughts are eternally submerged in a mire of self-disgust. I watch, aloof as the filth of this cruelty is accumulating around me, repugnant insults carried on the glistening spittle flying off my tongue. Hate-filled thoughts create a layer of crusty grime, hardening on the floor, in time, I can Read more
Destroying Patriarchy with its Gift
Why am I so triggered by the Kavanaugh news? Why can’t I pull myself away from it all? “Did someone ever sexually assault you?” my husband worries over tea this morning after I wake up at 4:16 am, feeling helpless and unable to sleep. “No,” I say. “But I know Read more
I Spoke Up: An Un-Famous Woman’s Tale of Sexual Harassment & The Backlash
Am I really looking at Bill Cosby in chains headed to prison? I am, and I can’t stop crying. Bill Cosby’s sentencing has stirred up so many feelings in me about the bravery of “speaking up.” I’m going to share my dark, shameful secret with you. I was sexually harassed by my Read more
Why Did He Stop?
I ask myself a lot why did he stop? Did I make too much noise? Did he hear other boys stir, their sleeping bags flop, anticipating eavesdrops? Too dark to see what he was turning me into beneath black nylon, stars. Do choked sobs travel far? A body he pulled from a Read more
The “Yes” Woman
“It’s all about you, how can you be living a life filled with such self-indulgence ignoring the rest of us mortals?” I could not tell you how many times this mere thought had crossed my mind in the last couple years. Not long ago, I was accused of such indolence, Read more
Arizona Heat
I never really minded the heat growing up in Arizona. It was just how it was. Cold in the winter and hot in the summer. When I met him, it was a hot summer day. At first, I was curious, and then the thunderbolt hit me. It hit him, too, Read more
Baby,Don’t You Know?
My eyes are stars and my vision impaired. You speak of love, washed over with a glaze of indifference, I see your lips move, but I think that perhaps you have me all wrong. I told you before in various ways, I showed you before with the movements of my Read more