What Do I Do
He’s just for now to take up time and when we kiss I can’t close my eyes when he holds me it’s not like you do oh how I miss every inch of you when I look into his eyes I don’t feel how I used to I can’t help Read more
Month: November 2016
Pretty Little Girl *Trigger Warning*
pretty little girl blonde pixie of a child big green eyes barely 4 years from birth. “do you want some candy?” of course she does. he tells her to be quiet so they don’t wake her baby brother sleeping nearby in his crib. they slip from the room in stocking Read more
My Dissociation Disorder
This isn’t happening. This isn’t real. I’m not here. (Cue heaving breathing) This feeling is horrifying, every morning it’s a dance with the Devil. But I suppose I will have to adapt. I am becoming unwilling complacent not knowing if I exist. I’m waiting for mortality to prove itself to Read more
The Ocean is a Woman
The ocean is a woman. She is vast and she is changing, And she does not hide from us All her forms, all her shades, All her faces. But we see her stilled, at times, And we assume passiveness. We see calm waters And, in forgetting her power, We abuse Read more
The Cult That Is Religion
There was a time in my life when I would rise with the sun every morning to usher in the new day. The flawless serenity of the new day’s light channeled the physical energy and spiritual fortitude I would need to meet every challenge and seize every chance to make Read more
An Accident of Love
Once when I was young, I read a story in the newspaper. A man had gone on a picnic with his wife and children. They spent the day by the lake, playing in the water, throwing a football, and doing all the typical things that families do. At the lake, Read more
The Nature of Love and Understanding
When my daughter, Eden, was in preschool, she had a playdate at our house with a fellow classmate. I vividly remember preparing a snack for them as they sat at a nearby table coloring and talking. At one point, Peyton looked at my daughter and asked her, “Eden, do you Read more
I Hear You
Last night I had a dream that I was home with my children, and we heard a ruckus outside. The kids looked out the screen door to see what it was, and a huge, angry dog came thrashing at them, viciously barking and jumping up to tear at the screen. Read more