My life falls apart around me
In split seconds
Hope being swallowed by Angst
Verbal abuse from a spouse
Who once loved me
He has taught the children
How to resent me
I think about flowers and rose buds
And their thorns
I think about the duplicate
Smile scars
Grinning faces across my
Bikini line
As if I will ever wear a bikini ever again in my lifetime
I don’t know how to make anything right
Not even my dog barking in this moment
In this one second I had you-I had you between my fingers
Opened my mouth for a kiss changed clothes
Did the laundry
And everyone has gone upstairs
I have done it again it seems
Likened my beautiful roses to a murder of crows
And sat and waited happily for them
To fall out of their trees
To die in the road
I sit back and watch with fascination
If you will still care about me
