Casualty

I’m just a girl living vicariously

Grew up in a black and white world

That’s against me.

Had big dreams to go far

Then life hit so freaking hard.

I relapsed into my old self

Tearing the pieces of the

Life I lived well.

Wishing to go back

Instead of living in this hell.

I created a shell

To protect me.

I’m just a guy

On autopilot

Wasting away as

My ego protects

My shame pulling

Me under my emotions

Overshadow my logic.

And I fell further

Towards the bottom

Wishing it would end.

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Saidah Varley is a poet and writer based in Illinois whose work explores emotional truth, identity, femininity, and the raw moments that shape self‑worth. She writes about unreturned love, longing, heartbreak, and the quiet resilience that grows in the aftermath of loss. Her poetry blends vulnerability with clarity, drawing from lived experience and the inner conversations that define modern relationships. She is the author of Freedom Without Restrictions and the manuscript Unrequited Love: Relationship Status Zero, a collection centered on healing, reflection, and the strength found in choosing oneself. Her work focuses on honesty, personal growth, and the emotional landscape of being a woman finding her voice.

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