After the Murder

“Your coffin reached the monstrous hole. And a part of me went down into the muddy earth with you and lay down next to you and died with you.” ― Rosamund Lupton, Sister After the murder, my prayers went something like this: “Help me. God, help me. Please, fucking help Read more

Sometimes, A Man Still Needs His Mom

“…a man shall leave his father and mother and hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh.” – Ephesians 5:31 “Sometimes, a man still needs his mom.” – Dave Pacailler, November 2016 At 81 years old, my mother is the epitome of old-school tradition. She goes Read more

Shadow People

The majestic trees stand silent as their burnt leaves free-fall to the ground. The short season to live and die is upon us. There is no wind to make the journey playful, less somber. The leaves will be stomped on, trampled or simply shriveled into paper-thin nothingness. Some say autumn Read more

The Titanic Was Huge

Thanksgiving was in the past, and the New Year, as ever, in the future. It was winter in New York, a season for parties. Accompanied by his fourth wife, Carl Fish attended only the finest, which he defined by his attendance. Often, these affairs were fundraisers although this one was Read more

Living with “Wild” Gratitude during the Holidays and Beyond

It’s the beginning of the holiday season, and for many people, it is often a mixed bag of emotions. It is a time when we are keenly aware of our relationships with family and friends.It is also a time when ‘high octane’ stress kicks in as we scramble about in Read more

Seductress of Sin

A heretic grin interlaced with longing Ferocious need danced behind barren eyes Her poise Thunder clouds and electricity, lead me to believe in her gospel of sin Where it not for her blithe commentary fornicating in the sea under stars against incidental walls I might not have chosen this bestial Read more