I wish I was the one you search for
so you would stop
getting colder as you walk away
so you say
But I am not the woman of your dreams
I am someone very special
just not the special one.
You build songs for those you’ve loved
and forever they remain
enshrined
in your metaphors and verse.
You’ll write your songs about me, too
how you tried to open my door
But I never meant to turn you cold
that path was already paved
Your analytical undertones
and talk of self-truths
challenge the integrity
of those you chance to meet
you claim I just don’t try
But look a little closer this time
because I, too
am like you.
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Dori Owen
Dori Owen blogs on ArizonaGirlDiary.tumblr.com, is a columnist on FeminineCollective.com, a contributor/editor for The Lithium Chronicles, created the Facebook page Diary of an Arizona Girl, is an author on AskABipolar, was featured in the books FeminineCollective RAW&UNFILTERED VOL I and StigmaFighters Vol II, and is a zealous tweeter as @doriowen. She's a former LA wild child who settled into grownup life as a project manager, collecting an MBA and a few husbands along the way. Dori spent her adult years in Southern California, with a brief stay in Reno, and has now returned to where she ran away from in Arizona. She is a shown artist, writer, and her favorite pastime is upcycling old furniture she finds from thrift stores. She lives with her beloved rescued terrier, Olivia Twist, and the cat who came to visit but stayed. The love of her life is her grown son in Portland, Oregon who very much resents being introduced after her pets. But she she does love him the most.
I love when you read what I write…and I love even more when you leave your thoughts…because they’re always so spot on. Yes, at the time I wrote it, I was sad. But not now! xoD.
***But I am not the woman of your dreams
I am someone very special
just not the special one***
Dori, that line especially saddens me. xx