For Judith (d. October 1st, 2015, Senegal)

The whiskey is speaking in tongues again
warming my stomach while life goes on
the Beagle snores
and my heart is sick and tired because
you have gone.

The ‘heart of darkness’ we called it. A continent that
confused and hurt you. Empathy made things harder
there, so you tried to cut it off. And it made everything worse.
So we’d say, ‘At least its not fucking Gaza’. For perspective.

And all those ‘dolly-boys’ you fancied are saying such loving
things about you. Your roaring tide, Jude,
that passion flows about us still.

This grief is a punch to the throat, I’m trying that hard not
to cry. I can’t even read with my boy because I want you.
Not Beast Quest V, which, I’m sure is very good but its not
you, is it? Although, you‘d guffaw and exclaim otherwise.

Your words are here. Your last message ‘I feel so much better’.
Then you died. That would have made you laugh.
A slightly noir flavour.

There is a star outside the window,
It better bloody be you.

 
Photo: ©Julie Anderson All Rights Reserved








Tabatha Stirling

I recently signed with Unbound, the literary crowdfunding publisher, for my book about maid abuse in Singapore called “Blood On The Banana Leaf.” Funding stands at a revved up 40 percent so if you felt like pledging for some really excellent rewards and my unfettered love, please visit this link:
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When I’m not writing or baking cupcakes, I am thinking about writing, reading, studying for my MLitt in Creative Writing at Glasgow University, designing book covers, gaming or watching dark, blood-splattered dramas like the Walking Dead, Ray Donavon, and Sons of Anarchy.
I am totally prepared for a zombie apocalypse!

2 thoughts on “For Judith (d. October 1st, 2015, Senegal)

  1. My Inner ChickMy Inner Chick Reply

    **Empathy made things harder
    there, so you tried to cut it off. And it made everything worse.
    So we’d say, ‘At least its not fucking Gaza’. For perspective.**

    LOVE this!!!

  2. Dori OwenDori Owen Reply

    This is so powerful and utterly original. One of the most moving I’ve read in a long time. I love the Heart of Darkness reference. Can’t wait to read your book! xD.

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