The Affair

I sit in a chair, near the window.
The light shines in on me, but I don’t feel its warmth.
I look around, silence is everywhere.
I am left alone in a big empty house.

You tell me to smile, but how can I smile?
Can’t you see that I’m in pieces?
A mere fragment of the woman I once was.

You came into my life like a whirlwind.
A smile so bright.
An infectious laugh.
You treated me like a queen.
You even bought me a castle.

We grew. We flourished. We loved.
Life happened around us, time flew by.
The sun smiled upon us.
I took it for granted you would always be here.
That you would always be mine.

I needed you.
I wanted you.
I loved you.
Until you loved someone else.

Now I’m alone in the dark
No light. No love. No hope.
Only pieces of us.
Pieces of a life I once had.

Of a dream I once shared.
Of the trust I once treasured.
And of the promise you didn’t keep.
One thought. One decision. One action – changed everything.

You say you’re sorry. You say we’ll try.
But I can’t try. I can’t live.
I can’t be that person, smiling through the pain.
While the question continually runs through my mind,
“Will he do it again?”

My heart is broken. My trust is gone. My hope is lost.
Those pieces of me that you broke don’t magically go back together.
I am forever changed.
You changed me.

How. Could. You.

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SA Smith

SA Smith has always loved the magical life. She is the bestselling Amazon author of FOREVER, her four part young adult paranormal romance series. She is an advocate for women of all shapes and sizes. Believing that we are all enough just as we are, and needing to spread that word far and wide. Having been diagnosed with CRPS over 12 years ago, SA also uses her writing to increase social awareness of the disease. Writing is her passion. She often tells friends that writing is a journey for her. It’s like spending time with friends. "I just follow my characters along on their adventures, like a fly on the wall, and see where they take me." SA currently lives in Florida with her best friend/husband and their one son.

3 thoughts on “The Affair

  1. Mary Rowen Reply

    I’ll never forget the night I discovered that my longterm boyfriend had cheated on me. That was it. We did try to get past it, but I could never trust him again. You capture that feeling perfectly, SA. Brava!

  2. Jayce Bryton Reply

    This is a really powerful piece. I love it. The raw power and energy. You are a master of your craft and these words have truly affected me. I’m going to share this with some friends on open mike night.

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