We met, we bartered, we pricked at a dead fly with needles.
The papery light above us, a hangout for living cousins.
Or perhaps he looks down on us now again,
All with gnashed teeth, insane smiles, buzzing …
Small hairs on my husband’s head, balding,
an ecosystem of Knowledge,
where generations of little flies all alight.
But my husband is already dead,
sweetly fragranced of rot.
They, always happy,
each corpse to them, an oblong planet
of nourishment, carbon and fun,
and Death, a game they always win.
His tombstone is half empty,
my cancer is winning,
I am unable to bathe,
and so no one visits me, but them.
I am damned.