For Medicinal Purposes Only

You are so crazy.
I can’t take it anymore.
I will not have this kind of drama in my life.
You are strange and unpredictable.

Am I CRAZY?
What makes you think that?
Is it because I grind my teeth every night, chasing demons in my dreams?
Is it because I go from UP to down in a split second?
Is it because my tolerance for bullshit is at an all-time low?

Am I STRANGE?
Maybe I am.
I know that I am aloof,
consumed with worry, and
locked down in a constant state of panic.

Am I DRAMATIC?
Do you think my words,
and
treacherous inconsistencies
make me dramatic?

Your life.
You can’t take “it”?

“It” meaning me.

Let’s face it; that is shorthand for
You don’t accept me.
Everything I am.
My insecurities,
discontent,
and
my desire for stability.

All I can say to that is,
May your life blossom.
I wish you all the blessings that you deserve.
Oh, and fuck you very much.

 
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Julie Anderson

Julie Anderson is the Creator and Publisher of Feminine Collective. Julie was inspired to create this safe place for women to share their secrets, desires, triumphs and pain as the antithesis of what mainstream media offers women today. In her column Pursuit of Perfection, she explores the importance of rectifying the balance of inner and outer beauty through essays, poems and articles on self-esteem, shame, family, and self- acceptance.

11 thoughts on “For Medicinal Purposes Only

  1. Susan P. BlevinsSusan P. Blevins Reply

    Love this! We need more of this to empower women to take control of their lives. “Fuck you” indeed! How many times have we wanted to say that and let our good little girl upbringing stop our tongue from uttering the words!
    Thanks Julie! Love your work, all of it, prose, poem and everything in between!
    xo

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