Winter of My Damn Discontent: A Sex Addict’s Journey Continues (cw:18+)

The winter of 2004 grew long and extremely cold, and so did my trail of marriageable men. I needed to prove to myself that I was not a sex addict, so I cut several cars from my promiscuous train. The pickings grew slim, and I rotated the crops often. Nothing Read more

Happy. What is Happy?

An Unhappy Perception I hate that Pharrell song, “Happy!” Every time I hear it, I cringe. I want to pull my stereo system out of my car. (Is it even called a stereo system anymore?) I think Pharrell is antagonizing with his lyrics. “Because I’m happy—Clap along if you feel Read more

I’m Tired of Being Scared

Have you ever said that to yourself?  Admitted that you were exhausted by your own combative thoughts that have consistently held you back? Felt worn down by your need to think through all of the possibilities before you act?  Enough is enough.  You have to stop being your own worst Read more

Sex Addict Revealed

It wasn’t until the death of my mother on July 25, 2011, that my blindness died. After three more months, I was born again, as an awake, aware, and sober addict and co-dependent. On October 10, 2011, I kicked my husband, Leonard out the door. It was a relatively minor Read more

BDSM and Swinging

In the summer of 2008, I left my life-in-law and felt inspired to write down my “sexcapades” as a legal outlaw. Perhaps my inspiration was this escalating sensual life with my new boyfriend, Leonard. Escalating? How could my sex life possibly be escalating?! Until I met Leonard, I thought I Read more